Friday, September 11, 2009

My Big Girl.

Part of my heart went to preschool for the first time this morning.


We have our ups and downs, this little part of my heart and I, but she absolutely means the world to me and now she's not here. I just keep reminding myself that the whole reason for her starting preschool now is to gain independence.

Almost every class, activity or outing Big Sister E has ever done has been with me, so this is our first experience where she gets dropped off somewhere (other than, say, Grandma's house) and has to fend for herself. I know she's going to have a great time and learn all sorts of new things, but I can't help thinking how strange it is that I can't see exactly what it is that she is doing while she's there.

I put on an overly happy, very excited face all morning as we got ready to leave and it seemed to keep her from realizing how nervous I was for her. Inside, it's hard letting go of some of my protective nature and possessiveness. That's my girl. My firstborn. My easygoing baby, my cautious toddler, my imaginative preschooler. That's my gentle, loving daughter.

My heart. I miss you already, E.

20 comments:

Sophia's Mom said...

Oh wow! the 1st day of pre-k! are you ok? Be strong my bloggy friend.

This Mama Rocks said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog. Glad your husband will be excited about the coupon! I love the title of your blog. I loove getting packages! :)

Stephanie said...

Beautifully written. We haven't quite reached that milestone yet, but...it terrifies me a little (okay, a lot...) just thinking about it.

stephanie@metropolitanmama.net

Jackie at 3littleones said...

she looks adorable!! i'm not sure how i'm going to handle the start of pre-k next year....

One Chic Mommy said...

How scary and exciting all at the same time. I remember my first pre-k drop off like it was yesterday, I stayed at the school for an hour and he ignored me the whole time.

She's a cutie and looks to me from the picture that she's ready to conquer pre-k! Enjoy these moments and don't worry after about a month you will start enjoying the free time.

Janie B said...

What a cutie! I'll bet she had fun. Letting go is hard, but that's our job.

Momma Such said...

It is so very hard, but it gets easier. I had a hard time this year b/c I had one starting preschool and one starting Kindergarten. So much in one year! They are doing great though, and I'm sure your little one will as well. She is so cute! :)

The Leaves of Tarkong said...

looks like a sweet girl you have there...cant imagine sending my son next year to preschool, too. guess have to get ready myself :)

doin my round of commenting on followers!

lululu said...

cute little girl!
i've heard a lot about how hard it's for a mom on her kid's very first school day!
i kinda want my boy to grow up, go to school, make friends......but somehow i dont!
following u from MBC! :)

JUST ME, THE MOM said...

Thank you so much for stopping by and commenting ever so long ago at my blog. I've been out of the blogging seen for such a long time, but I'm excited to visit your blog today. Love the precious picture for preschool - what a darling sweetheart! Hope she is enjoying a wonderful year!

Kristin

blueviolet said...

Oh boy, I can certainly relate to those feelings. It's really hard to let them go, even if just for a few hours.

Helene said...

Awwww, such a sweet post! It is bittersweet, isn't it? My older twins just started kindergarten this year and it was hard (for them and for me!!)

Thank you for stopping by my blog! I'm following you now!

Jessica said...

Just wait..... These moments are bitter sweet and from now on each step will be bigger and bigger.

I can remember the day, the first day of seperation for my first, oldest, big girl. And now.... she is turning 16 and taking her driving test tomorrow. I still feel the same as the first day of pre-school.

Good Luck....

P.S. Thanks for stopping by my blog. I love yours and am now a follower.

JaelCustomDesigns said...

Popping in from MBC!
Now following your blog...

A Frugal Friend said...

Welcome aboard An Island Life! :-)

I love the name of your blog......isn't it funny how we can almost be on a first name basis with the FedEx guy? HaHa

Looking forward to getting to know you!

Debra

Suzanne said...

Hi, She is adorable and I feel your pain...although my "baby" just started high school. Yikes!!! Enjoy every moment, which it sounds as if you do.
Thanks for stopping by my blog. I am now following you, too.

Luigi | Brochure Printing said...

This is a touching post. I somehow know how you feel. Let's just hope that she may able to enjoy her coming days in pre-school and may it be a wonderful experience for her. Your daughter is really cute by the way. Really adorable.:)

amanda said...

As both preschool teacher and a mom of a preschooler, I totally understand!!

Deb said...

Look how cute she looks with her backpack! That first day is hard, but I'm learning every first is hard with your oldest. Mine is 13, and as he lumbers across the different paths to his independence, my heart breaks and aches just a little bit every time.

Thanks for the follow, now I'm following you, too!

bxcrochet said...

Awww so cute. my daughter is 10 months so I got a long ways to go before that.